chic lady

goodbye

2008-07-17T00:01:00.001+08:00

till we meet again :)

2008-06-17T11:20:00.001+08:00

very drained.

back at LC - for the next seven weeks. somehow people dont seem as friendly anymore. must be the year end closing blues.

my heart is heavy

2008-06-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

i feel sad when:

1) i see someone looking uncomfortable and eating alone

2) i realise my internship is not even half over

3) i want to be with people, but i am stuck at home / in ulu ubi

this is who we are :)

2008-06-07T12:21:00.002+08:00

2008-05-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

i never knew that vouching 30 samples cld take a day!

am very woozy and very tired of work. my eyes hurt and my brain is slowing down. not that i use my brains to do my work hahaha.

i think the highlight of my day is lunch! :) that means meeting people :) and i love meeting people to catch up and talk. and i just found myself another permanent lunch buddy in selegie - the nus intern in LC who offered me meiji chocolates the other day. her colleagues are mean. she's sitting in the finance dept cos there isnt any space at her office left. AND they dont eat lunch with her.

had dinner with the buddy yesterday after her two-year disappearance to the US of A. then we visited the front office boy in marina mandarin hahaha which was quite funny really and i think this summer wld be much more lovely :)

right, its time to re-vouch certain things. very tiring.
and i miss the lemon barley in office.

audit & assurance

2008-05-22T15:26:00.003+08:00

afternoons are always the hardest to keep awake.

there are three things about audit that make work slightly more interesting:

1) its unpredictability. i think its fun being sent to random places at short notice (though probably only in the case of interns and associates) and of course, meeting new people at different offices! some are really unpleasant though, like the big one at T. but those here at LC are really quite friendly. some girl (i think shes an intern here) just came by to offer me extremely big pineapple balls this morning (which i refused HAHA) and just 5 mins ago she came by with meiji candy and poured out a whole lot of it on tissue paper insisting that i eat some. :) but she's spoiling my lose weight plan.

2) its actually quite interesting sieving through certain p&c stuff! i think its my kaypoh nature at work HAHAHHA.

3) you get to work with different people and under different people for different jobs, which may be a good or bad thing. people im working with at LC are kinda hmmm not my type.. but oh well :) jy told me i got booked on BT (back at gateway again!) for the week after and that the people are nice PLUS i can take a cab to work daily HEHEHE. so im quite looking forward to it :)

but does all this mundane work + low pay cancel out all theses supposed 'perks'. i feel like im not using my brains much, or being challenged. the work is simple and routine. i think it is only up at the managerial level where things get a bit more exciting.. it becomes more, client management and team management and actual big picture planning. but that's six years!

i think im rambling. not sure what i want to do when i grow up. mmms dont want to grow up! maybe i cld be a housewife and look after my children. then again, i can't cook.

rawrrs.

okay three more samples before my toilet break :)

2008-05-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

anything to rid of that strange feeling

friendship

2008-05-17T23:16:00.004+08:00

this has been a crazy week with no internet connection in the office and late nights out. but still lovely.

monday - i learnt what true friends are :) they are those who insist on helping you carry your heavy, huge & superbly ugly laptop case even though they were dressed up so nicely for a concert :) aww loves :)

thursday - i have also learnt that true friends are those who will come all the way to your office building to return you your matric card. and when people whom are/were far away suddenly sms and call you after a long time, it really makes your day. and it's really lovely hearing from them :)

friday - random friends you havent spoken to in a long time can really brighten up your day by miraculously appearing next to you in a crowded mrt station when you are feeling extremely grumpy. and having a fellow intern in the same office as you makes the vouching more bearable.. esp when we get a room all to ourselves hahahha.

although my heart feels somewhat empty now, and i am sorely missing certain people even though ive seen or heard from them the past week, i am learning to count my blessings. :) God created us all to be such social creatures. i find it sad that we have such little time for taking part in purposeful activities together. because i think friendship is more than just random meetups for coffee or concerts or meals. though i guess circumstances do make it impossible sometimes.

2008-05-11T02:39:00.002+08:00

so there's been many comments about my apparently spherical shape. hahahah. oh welllls :) time to think about what to do about it.

in any case, work is getting better.. though vouching is really quite a pain in the ass after a while. and i am quite sad that i am really not learning much here. audit is such a systematic and routine job that is practically.. brainless. maybe i am wrong because i havent been able to see the big picture. and all the stuff i thought was more exciting and strategic in nature like the risk analyses are apparently.. "for show". in a way? i really want to try a real internship somewhere else.. i think david's really having a good time doing com&ben haha it sounds useful at least.

mmms, i think i need to learn how to cook. HAHA :)

jaded!

2008-05-05T23:44:00.003+08:00

so the day got worse today.. with bad news from mom, and seeing more evidence of a world that is crumbling into pieces and drifting further and further away from Jesus.

feeling pretty much jaded now. i know i shld be writing happier things! i will :) soon :) now i just feel like writing about everything ive seen and experienced today.. but that'll be a double whammy. i already have a lousy post below. oh wellllls.

i am missing many people i havent seen or spoken to in some time. drifted from so many i havent met in ages that i wish time would rewind itself back to the times when there were less facades and more sincere 'i love yous'.

its back to the spools office tomorrow, which has only 1 working lan cable so of course being the most junior i dont get to use it hahaha. and that stinks when you have a reformatted comp and NO work assigned to you. so all i did this afternoon after shifting to the spools office was to document ONE invoice & delivery order, AND play hearts on the computer. tomorrow, i will be prepared for lull periods.. im gonna start beefing up my sermon - 21 june is looming! haha tt's something useful to do :)

humphh.

2008-05-05T09:46:00.002+08:00

i am an extremely unsatisfied intern.

i think the planning is horrible. some of us are overloaded while the others, like me, are sitting in the office - blogging and chatting on sametime. either that or i have a tic who does not trust me to do work. "oh this is too difficult i think you wouldnt know how to do this". then teach me! tts the point of interning right. i really do not mind the mindless cross-referencing, casting or filling up checklists.. but right now there is absolutely nothing to do. i am stuck with this job till 16 may then i move on to another audit till august so im hoping that my longer stint will let me learn more.. since im following the entire process except the planning. and i need to get out of the office haha even if it means going to ANOTHER office. at least its a change of environment. haa like someone said "audit is like desk-hopping".

yesterday was a bad bad day. everything that cld have gone wrong, went wrong.. so i left the party early to go for dance, but i lost my way (jalan jurong kechil is so not my area) and ended up in clementi. so i was late. but ultimately i did not go for dance in the end cos i only brought half my dance clothes.. what an idiot right. i sat on the toilet bowl outside the CCA room for 20mins thinking about how stupid i am and wondering whether i shld still go for dance half-dressed and late. several phonecalls and whining later i walked back to the carpark and drove home. so i miss dance, AND the cutting of the birthday cake, AND i paid 2 dollars to park in school for half an hour.

oh gosh i sound like a whiner today. but on a brighter note, i went cheapo shopping with my mom the past two days which was nice and happy! :) and we're going again tonight! also, i scraped by this sem by not majorly screwing up.. but this is still officially the worst sem ever and the most disappointing. still, i should be thankful it wasnt any worse. :)

and singing makes me happy :D i am glad im back singing this summer though it really isnt that much. i am just glad to be singing again.. i guess dancing certainly isnt my forte, or my passion. it is fun when it is not stressful.. when i am not pressured to look slim and graceful. or maybe im just lazy and i prefer exercising only my voice box than my entire body.

i need to do something. ive been writing for the past half an hour and no one has disturbed me. and when i ask for work to do, i get sent to my seat with a "yes i'll get back to you soon and tell you what to do". do i sound very disgruntled? are all interns experiencing the same or am is it just me, or my supervisor?

i think i shall think of something useful to do while waiting for jobs. i cant be blogging everyday or facebooking or emailing people or chatting on sametime whenever there are lull periods. i need to accomplish SOMETHING this summer.. and perhaps steal a few days away to go somewhere uncontactable.

im rambling haha.

the summer air

2008-04-18T17:12:00.002+08:00

i think the exams made me very uptight and easily irritated. but now its over and it really does feel quite good. not very shiok though, cos i didnt really put in a lot of effort so ending exams doesnt feel quite as a relief as it would have been like - the past three sems. but oh well, too late for regrets.

finally went shopping yesterday, i think shans and i were deprived for too long! i cant believe we spent so long in random shops and still didnt feel satiated at 10pm. we were actually quite sad when all the shops started closing and pulling down their metal shutters :( SO SAD. so we went to borders cos it closes at 11pm and borders really really has the prettiest cards ever! but they are really quite overpriced. their postcards and cards are really very nice. i cld spend ages just looking at all the random borders merchandise hehehe.

i bought my gold ixus :) it has a nice tinge of orange/brown and so it makes me very happy! pretty photos soon :) it's a lovely start to summer..

hmmms internship starts the week after :( i dont know why i feel a sense of dread :S

aights time to plan my weeeek :) starting saturday night! yay!

i think i need a new blog.

2008-04-15T19:38:00.007+08:00

it's tuesday of exam week and i have totally lost the steam! despite approx 40% of this sem's GPA depending on this week's exams, i am totally un-motivated unlike the past three sems. i am hardly anxious until one hour before the exam, which is of course, too late. i think five exams is taking its toll on me :( i think i will regret this when my results are back :(

but to look forward to thursday and the happier days ahead:

i cant decide which colour. HELP!

2008-04-08T00:28:00.001+08:00

pain. very very very pain. not worth it.

:)

2008-03-30T22:30:00.001+08:00

this is really quite random - suddenly miss the jc days, haha.

three more weeks and school's out :) not exactly looking forward to my 14-week stint at raffles place but my body's screaming for a break from the late nights and crazy workload. and summer's the most perfect time to meet people you havent seen the past year or so.

im running out of intelligent things to say. actually there's a lot on my mind but i think i've semi-lost the ability to express myself in words. ahhh, this is very sad.

2008-03-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

this is going to be a very trying five weeks ahead.
and really, it is each man for his own.
there is no one to depend on - don't fall for promises made by man.
only God is dependable and constant.

every step of the way, He's there.

2008-03-01T23:21:00.003+08:00

just yesterday, during family worship, my mom reminded me of the trauma we went through two years ago. i do remember having to change my flight just so i cld make it for my scholarship interview, but i really cldnt recall the tiny details and my mom got upset with me cos it was such a traumatic two days but i really forgot! but i got the scholarship in the end so it was okay :)

but as i look back, and finally recalled everything that happened. i can really see God's hand every step of the way.. allowing me to postpone the flight, letting me even get on the plane even though all the counters were closed (i dont even rem how!!), keeping me safe as i flew to philippines alone and travelled to the hotel in the middle of the night and finally giving me the scholarship.. and letting me make the right decision when two other scholarships came along.

i feel like im in the right place and that God intended for me to be in smu, and He has reaffirmed me in many ways whilst i am here and has allowed me to excel way beyond my own capabilities. i seriously think i am not capable of all these on my own. :) but now that im sure im in the right place, i dont know what i am supposed to do here. are there people i am supposed to meet, or is there something i can do with my degree in the future.

only God knows, and im excited to find out what :)

early morning..

2008-02-27T06:14:00.003+08:00

thought i'd blog to shift the angsty post down, :) haha. this mid term break is getting worserrrrr by the day! its crazy. im up at such an odd hour of the day because yesterday was a grumps-inducing day and i didnt want to do tax feeling frustrated and grumpy. i cant believe how i wasted the whole afternoon so unwillingly. but anyhows, im up bright and early and the morning air is nice and cool :)

i've forgotten how nice it was to sleep really early the night before and wake up early in the morning! its really quite peaceful and non-distracting haha. i need to do this more often. perhaps tomorrow.

still contemplating if i should go to school earlier for consultation with kta. i do have my fair share of doubts but he's so scary :( and i have an immense fear of being ridiculed. haha. and still thinking if i shld dance today with my semi-swollen toe. mmmmms. oh well.

my mommy's making pancakes :) i shall do 1 more paper then head to school i guess.

ciaos.

angsty

2008-02-16T18:46:00.002+08:00

find myself becoming more and more angsty of late, unable to explain why.

i feel overworked, but so do a lot of people, so i try not to complain. i need to cut down, i have too much on my plate. i find all my sundays burnt, by proj meetings and the likes. so many commitments to attend to, so many assignments to complete, quizzes to study for. so many obligations, every one asking me to do this and to do that. so many people to make happy.

i feel stressed and tired (adjectives often used carelessly). but the only way is to grit my teeth and bear with it, until it is all over.

im alive.

2008-02-13T23:25:00.005+08:00

i dont believe im doing this, despite all the work and to-dos on my never-ending list. people are not lying when they say every sem gets crazier and crazier. this is the last sem i am ever going to do more than 5 mods. (ok so its 5.5, and FT hasnt started. but i still feel v busy!) and this is the last sem i am ever going to do 3 accounting mods.

okay but it's outlook's fault that i cant check my email and am therefore doing unproductive things. so here are some pretty pictures. collage no 1 is cny with church friends - very fun! the family photos are still with kim so i dont have them yet! but they are really nice too :) my little coussies have grown!! collage no 2 is taiwan! :) awesome trip. do click to enlarge.

i really wanna put mission trip photos but there are just too many to sieve through. like over a thousand. i kid you not.

been a crazy semester so far, i dont even know where to begin. but anyhow, i will survive, i hope :) i need all the prayers to make it through to week 15 (oh dear, i just remembered - i have 5 exam papers).

i have been thinking very hard, about what i wanna do and where i want to go in life, esp after graduation. and i realised, that my priorities have shifted quite a lot a lot since the uniformed days. things have changed so much, my mindset and attitude. now as i turn 21 this year, it's really time to think and reflect (i love daydreaming and reflecting) with lotsa prayers. its adulthood man, that's scaaaary. there's something in me that wants to do the right thing, to make my mommy proud and of course, to make God proud.

i want to go on a birthday retreat! but that's still many months more.

alrightiees, time to sleeeeep. i'll be back.. soon. possibly hmmm, in the summer :) goodnight !

the Godly woman.

2008-02-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

Singleness is not a waste of time or a sitting on the sidelines, but a time that God has set aside especially for the woman, to make her into what He wants her to be, and to use her in ways that just might be impossible after marriage. Singleness is a time in which a woman is to cultivate the virtues that pertain to being a woman of God, so that she can offer to her future husband and the world something more than just a pretty face.

By no means is it a tragedy to be a single Christian woman, but the way of the world has once again infiltrated Christianity with the false idea that it is. One of the greatest lies is that if you do not "have someone" or are not "actively looking", there is something wrong with you. Another lie is that thesingle woman should be dating around as though looking for a husband were the same as shopping in a mall. Still another even stronger lie is that the single woman should be giving her affections away indiscriminately so that she may be more "experienced" and know what to do when she finally finds the man of her choice. My dear Christian, it is a lie and an affront to God to say that experience is the best teacher, when in fact it is God who is the best teacher, and though the world's motto is "live and learn," the Bible's advice is "learn and live." You do not need to be experienced, you only needto be knowledgeable of what God has said and obedient to it. You should not be looking for the man of your choice, but should be waiting on the man of Gods choice. And when he comes, it will not be past experiences that will make your marriage work, but past chastity, purity, and godliness. We should hide our faces from the ways and experiences of this wicked world and look upon only those things that God has placed in the path He has prepared for us.

a reassurance for single Christian ladies :)

its been long..

2007-12-05T23:23:00.001+08:00

since the last post. so just a picture taken yesterday to keep this going :)
it's always nice, to see everyone happy and well.

i seldom take photos nowadays, i think am quite over the phase. or perhaps it is due to my ever-increasing pudginess (it causes me to look like a fishball in photos) that deters me from posing for the camera haha. or MAYBE, i need a new camera to replace the faulty one :D :D

in any case, i'll be off to chiangmai for two weeks, then taiwan for a week. so it's gonna be another long farewell before i'll be back to type anymore nonsensical rambles.

2007-10-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

i vaguely remember wanting to blog about something, but i forgot :)

there were 11 baptisms today, and it made me teary, warm and fuzzy. haha as if my own children were getting baptised right.. hahaha but it always heartwarming to see people committing their lives to God :D

mmm i really forgot what i wanted to say.

oh, dont buy a sony vaio. NEVER.

2007-10-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

ahh, sick and tired of friends who only call upon you when they need you.

I made you.

2007-09-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday at the peace day forum, i heard the most beautiful quote.

people always ask God "why are there trials and sufferings? don't You care for Your people? why are you not doing anything about this?"
and God answered "I did. I made you."

it's a very powerful statement. why are we on this earth today? what is God's plan for us? it's so hard to put aside all these worldly pleasures and focus on what God has in store for us and to follow His plan. it's so easy to get busy with every day life - studying, working, making friends that we forget the bigger picture, the bigger plan. to bring as many people to Him along with us.

today i will pray to God to ask Him (again) what is His plan for me. in my small capacity, im sure there is something that God can use :) its like the five loaves and two fishes! my fav song of the moment :) hokay here are the lyrics, hope it blesses you today :)

a little boy of thirteen was on his way to school

he heard a crowd of people laughing and he want to take a look

thousands were listening to the stories of one man

He spoke with such wisdom even the kids could understand

the hours passed so quickly, the day turned into night

everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight

the boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had

he wasnt sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

but he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile

and the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said

"take my five loaves and two fishes, do with it as You will, i surrender

take my fears and my inhibitions, all my burdens my ambitions

You can use it all, to feed them all"

i often think about that boy, when i'm feeling small

and i worry that the work i do means nothing at all

but every single tear i cry is a diamond is His hands

and every door that slams in my face, i will offer up in prayer

so i'll give you every breath that i have

oh Lord, you can work miracles

all you need is my "amen"

take my five loaves and two fishes, do with it as You will, i surrender

take my fears and my inhibitions, all my burden my ambitions

You can use it all, i hope it's not too small

i trust in You, i trust in You

so take my five loaves and two fishes, do with it as You will, i surrender

take my fears and my inhibitions, all my burdens my ambitions

You can use it all, no gift is too small

2007-09-17T07:21:00.000+08:00

here's a nice pic of my freshies and i at the bash hahahas. but the flash makes us look like ghosts. love my freshies! hahas.

in anycase, i've decided to update cos well, i have TIME! okay actually i dont. but since today's one of the rare occasions im in the gym at 7am, so yup :) i like the gym early in the morning :)

ahhhhh am becoming incoherent.

want to blog about my crazy four weeks in school so far, but there's so much to say i think i shall just leave it at that. :) realised that i didnt blog about my birthday. hahaha, but i guess it was just like any normal day. havent been as trigger happy this sem, so no photos.

hmmm :) have nothing intelligent to say.

2007-08-31T11:06:00.001+08:00

since im already lost in complaw, here i am :)

these two weeks have seemed to pass in a jiffy, yet it feels like ive been back at school for so long. ccaday was like, huh.. just last week?

this sem is rather mmmms, unpredictable and busy. hardly any time to breathe and many late late nights. choked to the brim with readings, assignments, projects and events to organize, people to make happy. i just feel like im going through the motion everyday, packing my schedule with meetings and and obligations, commitments. going through the day by following my schedule without thinking. a mind full of things to do, tasks to complete. something doesnt feel quite right.

what's missing what's missing?

beautiful seed

2007-08-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

finally got my hands on this :) a welcome back to school present for myself huh :)

im really dreading this first week of school. thking about my packed schedule, i hardly have any time to breathe :(

ahhh, but now i shall just indulge in some good music :) before the 15-week mad rush.

ahhhhhhh.

2007-08-13T17:09:00.000+08:00

just got back from 9 days of living in the wilderness with the elephants.

i really quite enjoyed myself in the land of smiles planting trees, being so close to those gentle giants and eating mangosteens everyday despite the apprehension and dread when the day of departure drew closer. cos i had to leave so many things, so many responsibilities behind for others to handle.

since run 3 started i hardly had any time to breathe cos so many things happened in that short week, all the pre-trip preps and handing over of responsibilities. and now, school's starting in one week and i still have a three day retreat (which i suddenly dont feel like going for) and plenty of things to settle and follow up. really had this disgusting sense of dread as i switched on my lappy and log onto web outlook.

ahhh, right now, i just have to suck it up! and get my act together. it's time to start doing what i am supposed to do.

ftb and elephant pictures will be up, eventually :)

yet it was a heartache, that made Him cry.

2007-07-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

haha, been meaning to blog. about random events/thoughts that have taken place since last week. but somehow the inspirations die out when i log on. so anyway let's try to recall.

haha shannie turned 20 last week. twas a nice dinner with septven as usual and an interesting supper with sbc :) where we found out that all of us, sans mel and justin are in the same company law class next sem. that's one quarter of the classss!

syc came and went. it was a a pretty successful camp i guess. slowly and surely it will lead to greater things to come. sunday morning was pretty amazing. i understood clearly why i was allocated a slot that morning and not any other sessions. at first i wondered why. why sunday morning when the crowd is much smaller. then i realised that God had a plan and it was not by mere coincidence that our song fitted in so well with peter's message. tamps is a good accompanist, i thk i wanna do more songs with him. it was quite a powerful experience as i could feel God using us as His instruments. and in my heart i knew i was singing not for my own pride, as i often do, but for Him.

after syc i've decided that i will only sing songs that are uplifting. songs that bring people closer to God. what really made my day was not the applause and the hearty 'amen', but it was the tears in people's eyes and when people came up to me saying "the music really blessed me today, i felt God's peace" - i praised God for His awesomeness :)

i didnt take any photos during syc. but i guess it was an interesting experience.

urban pulse came and went too. i loved the kids :) and there were many interesting items. i guess we've come a long way as a club and slowly but surely the standard would become higher and higher :) jac's sunflower died a long tragic death but i hope she stills knows that i love her! ahhaha :)

we met with prof d last monday and i am really really psyched for ltm! :) people always ask me why i do things like ftb, ltm. i dont know, i just enjoy these things :) hahaha ltm sounds like its gonna be a blast and i hope my group will really grow and learn like how septven did :) the TAs in my class are all girls but im happy cos i've got my two favourite girls and i managed to get jac over from the thursday class! how perfect :)

i had two wisdom teeth removed today and my wounds are still kinda bloody. i hope it heals soon cos its rather torturous going on liquids (cant bite cos i removed both sides). the dentist gave me my teeth back. and it was fairly traumatic, as all surgeries are and im glad its over :S dentist says i've got a PETITE MOUTH! :D HA to everyone who says otherwise :) i guess i still talk alot for someone with a small bucal (?) cavity. but after the surgery i realised that this would grant me immunity from chubby bunny during campfire next tues, YAY!

speaking of camps, we finally got our faci allocations for run three. hahaha i think i annoyed andrew and feb a little too much. now i shall bug them for the FRESHIE LIST :D

so evil like that.

:D

more updates another day.

to travel

2007-07-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

it has always been my dream to travel. it's exciting, stepping out into an unfamiliar place. where the roads are different, the signs are different, the people talk different.

even short trips to malaysia just make me happy to be away from home, where my real world exists. not that the real world is bad, it's just nice to see some things different. and it's a very humbling experience, seeing world so different from your own. there's is so much more than the world that revolves around you :)

right now it's just the financial constraints. but eventually, perhaps after graduation, i really hope to be able trot the globe :) i just need to find the right people.

anyone? :)

the fabulous fabs!

2007-07-12T12:31:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, after one month, feb has sent me the mockcamp piccas :D so happy! shall post them up, but not too many cos it might spoil it for any wandering freshie that miraculously chances upon this blog hhahas.

kk, presenting the best group ever, the FABS :) :)

love those two shots :) cos 1) everyone is inside 2) we all look so happy. rafting was peak experience man hahas, and here are some snippets of the camp:

this isnt very flattering but i thought it was a really nice happy natural shot :)

hahas, and i was a sad sad girl at the end of camp cos i had to throw my pretty nikes away (soles are off). sigh.

okay lastly, i found this so funny i just had to put it up. presenting our head senior faci :D ! HAHA.

2007-07-09T12:13:00.000+08:00

okay my head was in a strange position because i was trying to block the sunlight, but to no avail. oh well anw, this is matric! at asoc booth.. being bored and thus resorting to taking pictures with my laptop! :) too bad i aint got no cool mac.

i can't talk now, it is very upsetting for talking is one of my favourite past-times.

im going to be mata! :) at least i think so. hope the prof contacts us soon and i hope it's slack :S

checking out new freshies has been a pretty interesting experience thus far. am looking forward to ftbcamp yay yay! :)

im bored tho i have plenty of work (read: idp) to do. bidding for mods has been a pain in the butt but at least everything is settled tho i have the craziest timetable ever. well at least i got two free days :) yayzers! hope i get my bids.. everyone play nice now.

ugh

2007-07-03T13:46:00.000+08:00

major major screw-up.

the simple pleasures in life.

2007-07-01T23:02:00.001+08:00

was a nice journey home today from zouk (yes my maiden trip there was to run with a whole bunch of pri school kids in the DAYTIME) and i thought about all the nice, though seemingly insignificant, things that happened to me this weekend, and decided to jot them down :) despite a fairly crappy week, i guess there are many simple pleasures and blessings in life that we ought to be thankful for. these are the little things that happen that we oft overlook or take for granted.

the simple pleasures:
1) the feeling after a run (despite the temptations to curse and swear while running)
2) discovering a new bus route that halves your travelling time
3) the traffic light turning green as you reach the junction, the train arriving the moment you step on the platform, the bus arriving as you approach the bus stop, etc
4) yummy peanut waffles fresh from the um, machine.
5) yummy peanut waffles that still cost $1 despite the gst hike (i had to pay 5c more for my loaf of wholemeal bread)
6) getting random hugs/pokes/high fives on facebook
7) talking and laughing with a whole bunch of people that you've never met and you still dont know their names now
8) having someone always look out for you and wait for you even tho you're slowing her down, thanks :)
9) having someone notice that you had a bad week and express concern, thanks :)
10) receiving positive affirmation when you are feeling the most insecure, thanks :)

lastly, knowing that there is always someone up there in control :D

discouraged.

2007-06-30T18:37:00.000+08:00

it is very easy to get discouraged. then sometimes i wonder why i put in so much effort. cos it is really tiring, and it's hard to keep everyone motivated and on the same frequency.

but then i remember, that i am not doing all these for them. im doing it for God and He will take care of the rest.

mmms

2007-06-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

i think it is scary. cos things that are supposed to upset me, dont upset me very much anymore. and things that are supposed to make me happy, dont make me very happy anymore.

i think im losing all my emotions! :(

or maybe i'm just tired because i've been awake since 5am, hmmms. and im so tired from all the random things i am planning or have to think about. it's exhausting.

i did my first tour today, which was really bad :( and i think sitting in the gym for 7hours straight is really really extremely tormenting. and it's only wednesday. i've got two and a half more weeks of this to go. EVERYONE, COME VISIT ME 9am - 4pm! :)

:(

2007-06-27T14:06:00.000+08:00

this is boring.

omg i am never ever ever going to survive a 9-5 job!!

and i think i'm becoming obese.

tomorrow shall be my dancing day.

2007-06-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

roarss! picca from church today! :) which felt strange. hmmms. AHHH i look preggers cos of the way i stand :( sobs.

anyhoos, tomorrow there's dance! and im actually feeling excited yay yay. and ballet at night.. so tomorrow shall indeed be my dancing day hahahahas. havent stepped into the ACC in a long time.. and i think my hamstrings are finally "healed" after i overstretched them the other time hahas!

today was dinner at ecp with random vjchoir people and gab says i grew fatter :( IM SAD. but indeed it is true. i need my new running shoes now now now! hahas.

okay i need to work on some proposal now, sigh. what a terrible miscommunication.

of blue pinafores and lovely songs.

2007-06-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

some random photos from the reunion last sunday :)

mich says i look like how i did in sec1! im horrified. hahas.

the lovely girls who made it happen :) ugh, BLUR PHOTO :(

all who turned up!! we had seven batches represented - what a feat :)

i think arms around the world will always be the signature sn choir song despite it being a two-part song (which is in unison mostly hahas!) but i still love it and it holds a special special place in my heart :)

in the spirit of reunions, fel and i start thinking of plans for a red tag reunion in the future! like the whole graduating batch of 2003!! :) with the full works - ballroom, nice dinner, pretty ladies, solid programme, school song, family dance.. like grad night, but 20 years later. the sort that needs a year/half a year in advance to plan. hahas, oh well, it's still an idea :) and we'll see how it goes when we hit 30.

just monday, during dinner with the septvens, hearing darren talk abt his crazily demanding stint at some foreign bank made me realise that I THINK I AM NOT CUT OUT FOR OFFICE JOBS :( i've never had one, so i wldnt know exactly. but i cant imagine myself sitting at a desk staring at my comp screen and random stacks of files and papers. so what am i doing studying to be an accountant?! oh wellllllll. then again, i cant really see myself doing something else like TEACHING (much as i love kids). so maybe number-crunching still works out best.

these few days have left me feeling very jaded, about practically everything. also, i am at this stage where i refuse to do anything even tho i know there's plenty of work/commitment piled up for me. even reading my email pains me as i see my to-do list accumulating like mad. i realised the importance of having the belief and passion in whatever i do cos without it, the drive to complete the work disappears and everything about it becomes a big big chore.

oh well, so i'm not really in the best of moods recently, and am feeling slightly anti-social. RAHS.

the sinner's need for christ

2007-06-11T08:20:00.000+08:00

man was originally endowed with noble powers and a well-balanced mind. he was perfect in his being, and in harmony with God. his thoughts were pure, his aims holy. but through disobedience, his powers were perverted, and selfishness took the place of love. his nature became so weakened through transgression that it was impossible for him, in is own strength, to resist the power of evil. he was made captive by satan, and would have remained so forever had not God specially interposed. it was the tempter's purpose to thwart the divine plan in man's creation, and fill the earth with woe and desolation. and he would point all this evil as a result of God's work in creating man.

it is impossible for us, of ourselves, to escape from the pit of sin in which we are sunken. our hearts are evil, and we cannot change them. education, culture, the exercise of the will, human effort, all have their proper sphere, but here they are powerless. they may produce an outward correctioness of behaviour, but they cannot change the heart; they cannot purify the springs of life. there must be a power working from within, a new life from above, before men can be changed from sin to holiness. that power is Christ. His grace alone can quicken the lifeless faculties of the soul, and attract it to God, to holiness.

tee hee.

2007-06-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

why do i love putting up incriminating photos of people? :) a p4 class photo i made rais scan for me. then again, i highly doubt any of my p4 classmates read my blog! haha but it's quite funny how everyone looks so.. small. if you look hard enough, im sure you'd find some people you know :) esp if you're a rafflesian. cos rosythians are everywhere!

haha!

my short getaway :)

2007-06-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

hahas ;) i wanted to upload them one by one with captions. but decided that it wasnt too wise :) check http://smusg.facebook.com/album.php?aid=26197&l=91df3&id=584370276 for the photos :) didn't upload all tho :) just about 40 out of the 400 we took.

the trip was a good one :) big thanks to alden for the transport and karen and aunty agnes for the affordable stay at aenon :) i like this sort of holidays, where you actually make friends and not simply sightsee, eat and shop at the common places like a normal tourist. got to know some of the aenon students and improving my spoken mandarin at the same time! (complete with the msian accent).

haha!! the four days passed by pretty fast and much as i didnt wanna go home, we had to leave. i actually wanted to extend my stay if not for ftb faci training at 8am the next day.

just a recap for my own sake :)

thursday: alden was late, as usual. haha! but we managed to cross the causeway at 5am or so. and got to aenon at EIGHT AM. all bright and sunny. it was a very smooth journey with alden tipping the 140km/h mark hahas. after breakfast, we had devotion and then karen gave me a FULL BODY MASSAGE :) complete with the olive oil and all, which was nice :) other than the fact we were short of time so it become an upper body massage. after lunch we headed out cos aunty agnes wanted to get her tau sar pia! and we went on a fruit spree. buying bananas, eating roadside coconut hahahas. cant really rem. suddenly that afternoon is fuzzy. but oh well.. we got back in time for farming! where the boys did all the work and i took photos :) and we saw the largest termites' nest EVER. it was disgusting. the more we dug the more termites we uncovered. yucks. night was choir prac and an early night :)

friday: we had our morning "exercise" by exploring the area outside aenon! i've always loved those nice cool country side kinda places. with cool fresh air in the morning, plenty wild plants and greenery and odd looking houses :) took plenty photos! then, we went colporteuring! for the uninitiated, it's the selling of christian literature. i used to scoff at the idea of selling books, cos i thought it was a terrible way of evangelising and that it probably puts people off rather than bring them to God. then i realised that's because we live in Singapore :) the mentality. i guess in malacca it works better, cos the people are not so wary of strangers knocking on their door and talking to them. with some being quite open, tho mostly closed. pingping and i actually sold two, by the grace of God :) and it was a really interesting experience. and i actually quite liked it, doing what i do best - TALKING. only wish i was more fluent in mandarin. haha. after colporteuring was lunch at aunty semai's. i super liked the fried tofu! haha, then after lunch was shopping shopping shopping! mahkota and the building opp mahkota. FOS is still the must see place in msia :) then we headed to the pasar malam behind aenon where they sold RM3 skirts and extremely yummy food :) by evening we were back at aenon, for sundown worship. then i cant rem what we did at night!

sabbath: we headed to malacca church :) and did our special song! it was really different singing with aenon choir, as compared to balestier choir. the first prac stunned me cos i never knew the song cld sound so nice hahahahahs. and we only had 10 people. i just hope the balestier youth can pull it off this week, rahhhs. church was good, sabbath school was taught by jason, who is an extremely good speaker for someone his age (younger than me!) and the sermon was preached by jiayi, who's also younger than me. hahas. and it was pretty good. you can see that all the work in malacca is spear-headed by the young people, which is heartening. what about singapore?? hahas. the afternoon was spent having a meeting about syc and then a choir prac with the aenon choir. after sundown, the five of us + jiayi headed down to jonker walk!! :) which was super fun! the car ride was excruciatingly long esp with the 4 of us squashed at the back seat but interestingly, our long journeys to and fro were actually more enjoyable than the actual shopping at jonker. haha, inside jokes. but jonker was pretty amazing. somehow singapore night markets just dont cut it. jonker had plenty food and cheap stuff! :) and the chendol was omg, HEAVENLY. pity was too full to get my own so i just stole a bit of everyone's :) shopping there was good, wish i had more money :) we got back at 12am, and found out that everyone was busy baking at night so they all just got back to slp too :)

sunday: RM1 set lunch day! so we just helped out in the kitchen, which was pretty much an eye-opener. it was good too cos there's much to learn and prepare if we wanna do it in singapore :) i made pies okay! made the dough. haha thk i was pretty much a liability but oh well :) the set lunch took up most of the day. and then we had to pack up. but before we left, we sang our special song for uncle fam and dr lee, who were very ill. and it was, touching. and what dr lee shared with us after that was really moving too. i heard alden sniffing behind me! and some ppl were tearing. but it was a nice end to the trip :) we said our goodbyes, which was pretty long. then we headed to jusco for a short while for me to get my water bottles! (really pretty!) and then at 7.30pm we started heading back to singapore. the journey didnt seem too bad for a while. UNTIL, we were 70 km away from johor, and the traffic reached a standstill. SEVENTY KM I KID YOU NOT. standstill! even at the road shoulder! aunty agnes predicted a 5am arrival time at singapore. i've never seen the NS highway jammed before. but after crawling for 20 km (took about an hour), we decided to pray and the traffic cleared miraculously! there were no exits or anything. the cars just disappeared :) coincidence? i dont thk so :) hahas it was pretty smooth. then got caught in another jam at causeway for 1.5 h then i reached home at 1am. amazing. but that sums up our trip :)

i kinda miss the people there at aenon, and their goodness and sincerity. it is nice to be surrounded by these kinda people all the time, no wonder karen really enjoyed her six months there. hmmm. it was a short but nice getaway. and i spent only slight more than 100 bucks including lodging, food, transport and shopping! :) most of the time it's because of the people you're with and the people you meet :) more than the things you do :) i wanna go on another vacation! RAHHH.

cantare.

2007-05-29T07:47:00.000+08:00

a little late! but this is from cantare last sunday :) was really nice seeing my favourite friends though we were sitting at different places hahas. hearts to my lovely soloist, felyna lee hui chay! whom i think still makes a wonderful sop :) hahahhas.

looking forward to 17 june :)

MEGAREUNION.

2007-05-28T10:29:00.000+08:00

haha. SNCHOIR.BLOGSPOT.COM for more info :)

so excited! :) yays.

of the long ago :)

2007-05-28T07:55:00.000+08:00

haha it was an unexpected gathering :) twas really nice nonetheless. i really miss singing, in a good choir, to the MAX! rahhhs!

the song that they were singing, is ringing in my heart

2007-05-16T10:19:00.000+08:00

so i was just testing out my photoshop skills. not too great, must explore more!

twas sov yesterday and frankly i was looking forward to vc more than vj. and it's odd seeing all your friends up on stage singing, but in a different sort of uniform. ahhhh.

i want to sing too! :) :)

veronica mars

2007-05-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

this is going to sound odd but i've discovered this fantastic tv series :D maybe i only find it nice cos i havent watched dramas in like 341354840982412458 years. no tv, what to do? :) hahas. and afterall, veronica mars is aired on channel 5 at the odd timing of 3pm - 4pm. (first caught it at lynn's place) am not really a tv addict but still, i think this fantastic man. hahahas. seriously, everyone with nothing to do this summer, go to that awesome tv webpg and watch it! season 1 at least :)

haha i have finished season 1. but i think i shall stop at season 2 :) enough of my teevee needs this summer.

lazy afternoon

2007-05-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

my favourite baby girl just turned one a week back! :) looking sweet in her little tweed dress :)

haha this is a first sunday afternoon since cny (i kid you not) that i am at HOME :) so im all dandy and happy! though i must say that i was quite looking forward to dance. packed my ballet shoes and dance pants was about to run out of the house to catch my bus when i was smart enough to check my smses. so yay! a nice rainy afternoon to laze and be happy :)

love to all. i love my hols hahas.

some things dont change :)

2007-05-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes it is nice to know that some things just don't change :) the summer hols has seen me meeting up and bumping into people i havent seen in a long long time and it's a nice feeling, knowing that some things never change :) it's good it's good :)

though in total irony, sometimes, we also know that some drama never ceases, some gossiping never stops. even across the big big globe. oh well, just glad that i'm not caught anywhere in the crossfire.

:D

so smuchoir is goodbye for me :) and i havent even tried singing with them yet hahas. but i can't say i did not expect this. haha come to think of it, it's like PERSECUTION. not sure if that is bad or good tho, cos one avenue less to sing :( but oh well, it may be a good thing afterall :) plus i need to focus, can't have too many things on my hands. am already too much of a busy bee :)

t100

2007-05-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

my canon ixus 4 is getting way too blurry and the flash aint working! time for a new one :) this is real pretty but it's 700 buckeroos! :) oh wells :) hahhas. it's still pretty aint it.

busy bee

2007-05-03T13:05:00.000+08:00

i realised i am actually quite a busy bee this summer!! :)

1. work at school gym
2. dance!
3. choir
4. asoc marketing
5. ftb facilitating
6. idp 07 (omg)
7. mission trip planning

on top of all these, all the other informal happy things like meeting up with old friends, snchoir mega reunion (!!), all the random concerts here and there, random trips to random places! :)

yay i love my summer hols.

center stage

2007-05-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

despite the predictable plot and cheesy lines, this has still gotta be one of my favourite films everrr! :) watched it at least 7 or 8 times since i first stumbled upon it in sec4. then sweet hide burnt it into a vcd for me and been watching it over and over again since then.

haha ballet and dance is intriguing in its own way. deepest regrets forgoing it eight years back, but glad to be back on track. albeit fat and rusty. but oh well :) at least it makes it happy :) :) :)

angel of music

2007-04-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

say you love me every waking moment
turn my head with talk of summertime
say you need me with you now and always
promise me that all you say is true
that's all i ask of you :)

hap-hap-happy :D

2007-04-27T15:44:00.000+08:00

am feeling rather happy and contented the past two weeks, just like this little kid in this collage :) summer time is indeed fantastic, aint it? :)

doing lotsa random things here and there. but enjoying every moment. that's what life should be :) it's a strange sorta contented equilibrium :D

this collage is really special i think. this little Hebrew boy is four. and it's his 4th portrait. his mom/dad takes photos of him every year (bday i guess). and it's really quite heartwarming looking thru all four portraits, seeing the little boy grow up. and all his sweet little expressions.

it's pouring real heavily outside. time to curl up in bed and read something :)

gold with honours :)

2007-04-25T08:59:00.000+08:00

haha, some things/some people just never change :)

i heart ootgr!

no idea why we're so excited about their gold with honours when 1) we dont even know the juniors. 2) they dont even know us. 3) they prolly dont care about who we are what we did.

haha but in the strange sort of way we love them anyway and are so so so so proud of them

can't wait for sunday! :)

rid of clutter

2007-04-24T09:09:00.000+08:00

okay, i've been in the gym for two hours doing absolutely nothing.

but greeeeat :) i am in the midst of clearing up some of the stuff in my laptop and inbox. everything's in a huge huge mess of sorts. but end of term always signifies purging of unnecessary clutter eh? haha makes me feel cleansed and happy. and there's still that whole bunch of junk in my cupboard. must spend this week clearing it too :)

some indian guy from bombay was like looking lost outside the gym and kept calling me out to ask for directions. said he's looking for the indian airlines office in smu. (?!) how odd. then he said he's a yoga master, kept calling me 'sister' and told me im going am very lucky and that some really good thing is gonna happen to me come july 2009. *shrugs*

maybe he is really a nice guy with good intentions and is genuinely lost. would really like to believe so. hahas. but singaporeans are generally suspicious and cynical, like me. why why why?

ohhhh wells.

the legacy.

2007-04-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

now, four years after graduation. everything and everyone was so strange yet so familiar. i felt the same excitement, the same anxiety. i spied the same black tshirts with luminous orange words. the same room, the same familiar photographs. i even remembered uttering the same words four years ago "8 months of hardwork for those few minutes on stage".

:)

oh, and the same bottle, with golden stars :)

so the faces are new, and perhaps they dont even care about who we are or what we have done. but manda said it right.. it's like a sense of pride, seeing hints of our legacy living on :) seeing them sing better and better each year. and knowing that somehow somewhat you were part of this, albeit 4 years ago.

i believe they feel the same way right now, the way we felt 21 july 2003, the day before THE BIG DAY.

hope they will feel the same when the results are announced too :) haha, utter euphoria and elation :D !

will keep them in my prayers tonight :)

if i could relive any day, i would..

2007-04-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

..choose sec four in st nicks.

at 6.45am it's down to the tracks to run (strangely we did that a lot in sec 4 even AFTER napfa) then it's morning assembly and i am saying the prayer/making announcements. then lessons. then recess is prefects meeting at old specs stand, then rushing to the canteen to grab chicken biscuit/toast/zooland to eat in class (shhh.). then more lessons :) and lunch! and choir prac till 6pm. then we linger around chopin room before heading down street 13 to macs, pooling all our coins together to share 2 large fries :) the simplicity of school life :)

summertime!

2007-04-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

i think i have mentioned umpteenth time how glad i am that summer is here (the only four months i have been looking forward to since jan this year) hahhas. indeed it's been great fun and im looking forward to more slacking, catching up on the things i've wanted to do :) yays!

here's a happy pic from volar :) cycling with two of my favourite smoogles.

tomorrow am going back to the alma mater (yes im ancient!) with the manda lim hahas im quite excited and looking forward to stepping into the land of blue pinafores and eating from the all too familiar stores. hahas! yay!

ho hum, sometimes i wished i could write deep thoughts like some other people out there, instead of my useless bimbotic ramblings and rants. hahahas! ohhhhh wells.

thank You God :)

2007-04-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

been pretty caught up with activities over the hols, hardly any time to breathe and reflect really.

i think God has been very kind, very merciful this school year. i feel His presence all round. sometimes, when there are things that don't go my way, they always strangely turn out for the better. my prayers are always heard, answered. perhaps not the way i wished they would be, but answers definitely for the better.

i don't really know where to start, how to elaborate. i was just, wowed. like after thinking about it, i could see God really standing by my side throughout this whole school term. there's ct, twc, dance, ambassadors:), choir, random events here and there. all the new friends i made, old friends i kept, even older friends i caught up with.

the many people i met, many new things i've done.

haha im grateful, and am looking forward to a happy, exciting summer holidays :)

love all!

the past sem :)

2007-04-18T07:14:00.000+08:00

finally a post with COLOUR :)

i bet everyone's extremely excited huhh. so after rummaging through my photo collection of the past sem, i realised that i was SERIOUSLY lacking photographs. took so very few, bet it's less than all the photos we took during ltb party hahas.

so this sem, evident by the lack of photos, hasnt been as eventful as the last but i am still happy the way it turned out (minus the possible drastic drastic drop in gpa). all the new things i tried and joined, all the new friends i made. but the old are still the best :)

so it's the summer hols for me now and im so very excited :) await more posts with pretty pictures! :)

is there a limit to how long my posts can be cos i can't seem to add longish ones.

ladidums :)

2007-04-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

my summer break official begins in FIVE HOURS :) can't wait :)

hahas, have reached a point where i cant take in anymore accounting knowledge. just wanna get the paper over with, really. rahhhs. but slightly terrified at weightage of this paper on final grade and GPA.

okay maybe i shall go read sth.

CANT WAIT FOR SUMMER!! :) :) :)

humility

2007-04-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

i realised one thing some smoo students lack, is humility. we have egos that are just so very big! we have pride that cannot be hurt. snobbish, perhaps, to a certain extent. haha no wonder the hasty generalization of smoo students :)

though some of these are people are, my friends, forgiven :) but it does get a little unnerving.

Jesus was humble, as he was many other good things as well. we're supposed to look upon Jesus as a role model, but it's so difficult to be a Christian true and true, in the heart. you cant just have one of the good traits you've gotta have them all. it's like the Anna Karenina principle (gasp! TWC!!)

but yups it's something that we shld all strive towards :)

aights. been busy cos exams are next wk :) at least all projects (ct, bgs, blah) are overrr :) so yay for us. piccas up soon, after the exams!

am looking forward to a happy summer break :)

blessing(s) for the week.

2007-03-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

so kexin and i have been praying very hard for our twc project - the airbus A380 case cos it's just so damn hard and the discouted cash flow breakeven analysis just really scared me.

but we prayed for it :)

and God did answer prayers in the strangest ways!

while we were both at the sess printing room collecting our stats lecture notes, the printed jammed and after fixing it.. a whole of papers started coming out along with our stats notes. notes on AIRBUS AND BOEING. just when we were fretting about our project! people will say, what a strange coincidence. but we'll say, what a blessing :)

God also put the right people in my path at the right time, so i got help for my analysis :) and we got help from other random people as well (inc prof).

and yesterday's presentation was the best presentation ive done the whole sem. (then again, it's only my 3rd presentation this sem. have got 3 more to go). so praise God really :) i've never felt so calm and prepared for a presentation before. am usually quite jittery before presentation but we were actually EXCITED and wanted it to come sooner than later. prof's nods and smiles were indication of a job well done :)

yes, God does care for the little things. and i am so thankful :)

now it's another 3 more presentations/projects to go. really need to pray, esp CT.

alrights it's time to do my bgs report :)

when you feel like complaining..

2007-03-21T08:55:00.000+08:00

pray in your heart.

sometimes God puts you with people you really don't like to work with, people with foul mouths, stinky attitudes and are too full of themselves. but gotta be really patient man.. really patient.

and hope that these two weeks pass in a jiffy.

when i think about the next three weeks:

4 presentations (inc one CT video)
3 reports
4 exams
1 hw assignment
1 inclass test

i wonder how im gonna do this all.

haha, my sn choir :)

2007-03-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

OOTGR! WATCH THIS.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrpjNRT6ilk

right at the end, they sang JUBILATE DEO. omg! and i thought that song was ANCIENT already. we first sang it, when, SEC ONE!? that was seven long years ago. and its the FINALE item. now doesnt that totally ring a bell? sec two sec two sec two.

and they still havent changed the icky red costume!! haha. im shocked. but despite the strange attire they made us wear, this is still the choir i love, the choir where i learnt to love singing :) haha, we were nt a perfect choir. we didnt sound very nice but sometimes, its the imperfections that make us strive harder and when we got that Gold in 03 it was truly sweet wasnt it :) :) :)

loves to my sn choir darlings :)

sigh.

2007-03-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

its a sucky wk 11. cant wait for sunday to be over.

feeling the jitters for tomorrow, feeling the stress of the piles of undone work :( its gonna be midnight oil (literally) on sunday. and im gonna need a super thick skin for tomorrow. dont know why i get so discouraged. am trying to be confident of own abilities but sometimes people unknowingly dampen confidence with the little things they say :( blah. getting incoherent. things are looking bleak. the mother's unhappy. but i have no choice.

need prayers. lots and lots and lots.

vers la ville

2007-03-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

so today, i had my first proper dance performance!! since.. primary sch when i was small and tiny in my ballet tutu and shoes :)

haha though we the newbies hardly danced (and cld hardly be seen when we did dance), it was still pretty nice and all :) fuzzy feeling when we did the finale with the bowing and suddenly it seemed a little too short. but i think the nicest thing about this was all the lovely lovely girls :) though some may be quitting, and after auditions maybe not everyone will stay (i may not even get thru :( :( ). but it was lovely while it lasted, a nice memory to my campus life.

stupid me forgot to bring my cam!! so stoooooops!! hahas. so pictures of our afro hair and terribly lined eyes (bliss detroyed my eyebrows, haha!) will have to come later after i get pictures from the gazillion ppl i took photos with.

haha now that the production is over it's BACK TO WORKKKK :(

SIGH.

to those who still dont understand.

2007-03-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

here goes :) http://www.adventist.org/beliefs/neighbor/index.html

it's nice and lighthearted and it perhaps gives many people a much better idea of what we are :)

sometimes it gets hard to keep holding on to your convictions - sabbath keeping and all. but you just gotta do it and keep reminding yourself, why? why am i doing this? who am i serving? God or man. and hold strong, because once you falter.. it's easier and easier to slip away.

people will question and scoff, but we just gotta keep believing :) :)

doomed.

2007-03-08T16:06:00.000+08:00

im doomed.

have have have to learn to be more thick-skinned.

2/15 for class participation is NOT GOOD.

hahas. soooo cui. twc is gonna be worse. bet that's almost zero.

whooopsie :(

this sem cui alr. hahas. DIE.

wow

2007-03-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

this is just so amazing.
http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,124267-1173218340,00.html?
seriously cut throat.

glad i went to vj :) and still extremely grateful for my less than perfect score :)

everyone should be like THIS
http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,124268-1173218340,00.html?

it all boils down to expectations, doesnt it?

haha :)

ho-humm.

2007-03-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

so the hellish second half of the sem has started and i must say it has indeed been busy busy! one disappointment after another, one assignment to rush after another. work aside, dance has been busy with the showcase next week and now it seems that there is a newly established choir in smu too! signed up for the auditions out of curiosity so we'll see where this all goes. haha.

my poor poor lappy has undergone severe trauma since the last blog post. sigh. but im glad for its quick recovery though the scars can be seen and its memory gone. painful.

ohh well im home early for once :) and after bathing, i am gonna be working on my AS, bgs, stats and the likes.. till the weeeee hours. or rather, till i finish.

ahh the life of a uni student.

youth sabbath

2007-02-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

im so so proud of everyone, especially shannon :) i think that there is so much that we have to thank God for:

1. for answering my urgent prayers to heal my sorethroat so i could sing today (thanks to the others for praying for me too!) though still had a stuffy nose and hurting throat i hope the singing was passable and hope i didnt make anyone cringe in the audience.
2. for all the youth choir, who were so enthusiastic and who sounded so lovely singing the last song though we only ever had ONE practice (for the newbies) and it was all well-memorised!! :)
3. for giving shannon the strength and FAITH to stand up there and preach his first-ever sermon! despite the loose bowel movements (haha) and what was it.. sweaty/cold hands? hahas. and for being with him as he prepared his sermon :)
4. for our lovely pianist, kevin! always behind the scenes but indispensable. providing music for ALL our songs - song service, special music and the special last item. may your talents grow as you continue using it for God :) (parable of the talents! haha)
5. for calming all us nervy ones! the choristers and worship team. and alden and i! :)
6. for the lovely sound crew (aka sam) who came super early just to set up the sound system and hear alden and i croak over the mic and re-playing it and giving critique.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

7. for a super supportive church! for not criticising our booboos and hiccups.. and for always encouraging the youth :) i think you cant ask for nicer church adults :)

brrr.

2007-02-21T07:40:00.000+08:00

why are gsrs so freezing cold every morning? :(

so im in school, bright and early on a NON-SCHOOL DAY. sigh, project meetings.

hmmm i think i've mellowed down a lot since last sem. project wise. haha is that good is that good.. not so picky and on the ball. not so antsy about this and that. finding myself more relaxed now. is that a good thing? or that could translate to being SLACK hahas. but im glad i dont find myself stressing over this and that :) tho i expect next half of the sem to be hellish and i'll probably be more antsy than usual but let's i've "enjoyed" the last half of the sem so let's just continuing enjoying this week. hahas. i foresee not-so-good grades this sem but, somehow a tiny part of me doesnt want to care. rahhh, the paper chase gets tiring. the fight to always be on top is tiring. cut throat environment, but i guess it's rubbing iron with iron, everyone gets stronger.

im rambling.

so, yesterday was fun! it was a nice day out :) house-hopping. from shan's in the morning, where we sang stupid songs and twanged on the piano (or rather, justin twanged). shucks i must really learn those classical pieces on the lighted keyboard too! HAHA. then it's off to josh's at BISHAN for liv prac with shan, which was niceeee :) i really miss singing, ohh yes i do! haha, then it's off to buy shan's HAMSTER FOOOD. and to karen's house with the brats :) which equals to plenty good food! (i have a sorethroat already) and plenty good company though i was falling aslp half the time. haha. i really liked the prayer meeting at the end, and i think it should be done more often, whenever two or more of us get together. cos we're not just a social group, we are part of God's church and we were all brought together for a different reason.

so anyhoos, to all brats please READ THE BRATS BLOG (link at on the right) :D

photos will be up soon i hope! i cleverly brought my camera along yesterday, WITHOUT MY MEMORY CARD. i must be the greatest genius around. so those who are responsible, SEND ME PICTURES NOW.

:)

it's the time of the year again.

2007-02-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

yada yada :) everyone grows up so so so so fast i cant even keep track! so i didnt take many photos today but it was nice seeing all the little kiddos again! and here are my faves!! the jan- sisters and my little charsiewbao :)

peekaboo! janelle kept taking photos of herself!! here's one :)

and here's the favourite coussie who's going off to melbourne (again) this sunday. haha from the barbiedoll times till the stack-all-the-mahjong-tiles-on-the-table times :) <3

happy vday :)

2007-02-14T08:22:00.000+08:00

why do i feel like im the only one who came for stats class today ? :( its starting in teeeen minutes and there's no one arounddddd.

oh well. haha. cldnt seem to find pretty roses piccas. this is the prettiest.. i think vday in smoo/vj will never beat vday in st nicks :) haha i neeeeeed my hugssssss!! hahas.

okay yay i see classmates! :)

happy happy

2007-02-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

feeling somewhat in a happy mood today :) dance was enjoyable and it seems to be taking shape! and no aches no aches. somehow today's practice made me feel happy happy.

my bgs prof is on the front covers of tnp and in the straits times and lianhezaobao for going missing on a trekking trip. oh gosh! he's so free! he can go TREKKING while we burn our weekends studying for midtermss!! and he cancelled monday's bgs class. why oh why can't he cancel ours too :( hahas

but its still a haaaaaaaappy day :) albeit the hellish week ahead of me. rawrrrrs.

septven.

2007-02-02T10:38:00.000+08:00

this is my 100th post! :) and shall be dedicated to septven :) :) :) the bestest LTB group in the world :) sometimes we go through the tough times hating it, dreading the deadlines and presentations. but after it's all over, you look back and remember the sweetest memories haha.

a little something that justin wrote yesterday that really touched our hearts.

"We looked at each other, thought to ourselves perhaps... the strangest feelings and the stranger figures all around the table. Uncertainties, eagerness, even reluctance. We came in seven, with the least familiarity of one another, or maybe a few others. The usual hi byes, the first meeting..... the sunflowers as an object.... the ever bright yellow glows within, much to all our delight. Anticipation... perhaps too much of it, we had great fun... nine of the pieces, moving around precariously in a tiny plastic bag; we exchanged it for a weekend. Took the car, all the way past punai to the traffic light across the reservoir... Still holding them steadily, we stepped up one at a time, we showed them to the class. the relentless mails, the long meetings..... we paid with lunches.... She wore the dress, and the camera started rolling... it merely took a day... there the two soldiers in class, tried their best, and the well written poem... the red car had taken us the longest way, only together we could have taken ousrselves further... we did... the late nights... very late nights, the eyes were red... we have come so far... even time itself couldn't provide an explanation... the song played, we were standing around trying to get in beat... the time wasn't right but the mood was perfect.... ever so ready to do a presentation himself... the yellow tops as bright as the flowers, hadn't notice until darkness came... helped the less privileged... enthusiasm, never too much of it... we saw ourselves like we were many years ago.... the story goes on.... we merely completed the prologue... let us write each others' stories, shall we? "

haha how sweet is that la.. boys do have their emo periods, tee hee!

cheers to a lovely project group :) or rather, a lovely group of friends :)

yawn

2007-02-01T08:53:00.000+08:00

sleepy-eyed. came to school really early and was actually intending to use that precious time to read my bgs (test later, again!) but i ended up falling asleeeeeep. like seriously conked off in the gsr.

recently not really in the trigger happy mood so no pictures ehh.. but here's a really pretty cheery pic (my wallpaper!).

nice rights! makes me feel so much happier hah. now everyone knows what flowers i likeeee :)

realised i have been blogging all my random ramblings instead of like.. intelligent, thought-provoking things. maybe i shall go on a short hiatus. haha

went rock-climbing the day before and i must say that it's actually quite fun when you reach the top! hahaha. though i dont foresee myself climbing in the long run. climbing is really quite an art eh.. must think and concentrate. someone should invent artistic climbing.

:) :)

i realised in that in uni, if you wanna do stuff, really just whack and be thick-skinned. maybe the world's like that. haha think my skin has grown thicker after coming to uniiiiiiii. alrights la. enough rubbish. going to read my bgs. and pretend to pay attention in MA.

brrrr

2007-01-31T08:17:00.000+08:00

im freezing my legs off in gsr 2.16 waiting for my lessons to start. YAWNS. it's been a busy yet unproductive week. and yesterday i discovered that we've got stats hw due next week! i think im the last person to find out.

the thing about sess gsrs, is that the walls are not sound proof. or rather, they're practically porous! i can totally hear what's going on next door.. but at least they are playing corrinne may :) :) :) that makes a slightly happier morning.

need to find black pen. patron's day saw me losing my entire pencil case :( my markers! my pens! my pencil! :( can't do AS hw with no black pen. sigh.

what a day.

2007-01-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

it was a rather grouchy day to begin with, with the SMU undergrad office pissing me off. it's really irresponsible of them. seriously. and it's rather painful to my ego, and makes me feel taken for granted.

but let's count the blessings for today :)
1. a good twc meeting, with the whole ppt out. though am feeling unsettled cos it's gonna be boring.
2. finally played badminton. sadly with 3 pros, making me feel very noobish.
3. climbed up the rockwall! :) albeit the easiest route hehs. but sense of achievement ok! i still cannot and will never do bouldering haha.
4. a good bgs meeting. very animated members and i like lively meetings! hope the energy remains uppp.
5. I GOT THE GYM JOB. omgs, seriously im overly shocked. because i think i had the most pathetic application :) hees.

so all in all, a good day :)

question

2007-01-29T08:37:00.000+08:00

Protagoras taught rhetoric and argumentation, which in ancient Greece comprised the education of a lawyer. Euathlus wished to learn these arts and asked Protagoras to teach him. He said he could not pay right away but promised to pay in full after he won his first case. Protagoras agreed, and taught Euathlus rhetoric and argumentation. Some accounts say Protagoras sued Euathlus for payment immediately upon the completion of the lessons; other accounts say he waited until it was evident that Euathlus was not taking on any cases. The case was heard in the court of Areopagus in Athens.

The judge asked Protagoras why he thought he had a claim against Euathlus. Protagoras argued, "I will either win this case or lose it. If I win it, then Euathlus must pay me, by the judgment of the court. If I lose it, then he must pay me, under our contract. So he must pay me either way."

The judge was impressed, and asked Euathlus to reply. Euathlus had learned his lessons well, and replied, "I too will either win this case or lose it. If I win it, then I need not pay Protagoras, by the judgment of the court. If I lose it, then I need not pay him, under our contract. So I need not pay him either way."

What would you decide if you are the judge?

a little something from my AS homework.. just to tease your brains a little. i still dont know the answer :( haha.

sweeeeet.

2007-01-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

this is so adorable right! :)

tomorrow's gonna be a happy day! im glad :D

things are picking up in school. work, projects and all that jazzzz. but better than being bored to death. life's getting more exciting with the plethora of activities are that just screaming my name HAHAHA. oh wells. here's to a good year ahead :) i hope!!

smallie's coming to visit tomorrow! YAYS.

aights im running out of intelligent things to say, so goodnight all :) im gonna study MA.

ramblings

2007-01-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

a little something to brighten up this place (: i love macro pics and i love flowers. THEREFORE, i love macro pics of flowers. haha they're just so cheery arent they? :) sunflowers, orange daisies.. i like!

so it's my homeday again! strangely this semester seems very.. relaxing. for now :) haha. i havent had a single project meeting yet. very odd. last sem this time i was FREAKING OUT over my biz law presentation. couldnt eat and sleep in peace.. oh well :) then there was ltb. AH, the horrors of ltb deadlines. this just feels strange now haha.

shall enjoy alllll the free time i have then.. haha loving loving it :)

tee hee.

2007-01-15T10:30:00.000+08:00

my precious baby is coming home to meeeee! :)
it didnt lose its memoryyyyy!
just gotta do plastic surgeryyyy!
costs eight hundred and fifty threeeee!
but STILL,
my precious baby is coming home to meeeee! :)

:D

oh my pretty vaio i will never EVER leave you on the toilet ledge ever again!

ho-hum.

2007-01-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

i guess it was a pretty fruitful day yesterday :)

i think aunty mae has the most amazing stories to tell, and the most amazing stamina to talk nonstop for more than an hour. even i cant do that! haha.

need lotsa prayers this weekend. plenty plenty.

:(

2007-01-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

today is officially, the worst day of this year :(

3 seconds of fame.

2007-01-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

so i appeared on teevee for the 3rd time in my life. how, pivotal HAHA. at least this wasnt some cheesy commercial like the other two.

have i mentioned that the first time i appeared on teevee (very much by accident) was with fel, when they caught a shot of us walking at bishan interchange in sec1. we were innocently heading towards moelc for french lessons, when we saw a camera nearby. i stupidly pointed at it asking fel if it was some sort of survey thing to record human traffic at bishan interchange. oh gosh.

anyway, it was commercial for a chinese programme whose topic of that week was - QING CHUN DOU! i can sense mocking. okay i WAS very pimply but i didnt know it was enough for an ad on pimples. everyone in sch kept telling us both about how they saw us on teevee but i never ever caught that commercial (though fel did).

the 2nd commercial was of course, the MOE one. of vjchoir haha singing at the "choir olympics in bremen" when we were actually doing the photoshoot and filming in our very own pt. ooo, we even have our faces on a paper bag. i rem how jiax and i were so excited when we saw ppl carrying the paper bags at the career exhibition. then we went to the MOE booth to trick the people into giving us the bags, by pretending to be very interested in being teachers.

haha this things are so funny when you think back. and yeah, i never saw the MOE commercial either.

oh. and for records, i didnt catch the recent one on CNA either. but SMU daily alerts is very efficient. got video. i cringed watching myself stammer and fidget.

so much for the 3 seconds of fame! HAHA.

fast away the old year passes!

2007-01-01T03:06:00.000+08:00

fa la la la la, la la la la!
hail the new, ye lads and lasses!
fa la la la la, la la la la!

we spent the most of the new year so far squashed at the back of alden's van. haha but it was quite fun :) watched the fireworks, moped about the noisy beach and now i am homeeee! why didnt anyone do that '5 4 3 2 1 YAY!' thing before the fireworks appeared? BUMMER.

now, since i was touched by ralph's blog post (haha), i shall do a what i have done the past year thingamajig too.

1. i earned my own moolah for the first time :)
2. tried driving, haha.
3. started a youth choir! :) :) ask me for the newsletter!
4. saved my mom from paying my school fees
5. survived the first term of uni pretty well
6. moved out of my eunos house :(
7. started playing the piano more frequently! :) its fun.
8. made a LOT of new friends
9. (same as ralph), am much closer to the youth in church
10. GREW FATTER! (no i didnt lose 10kg, sigh)

haha this list is by no means exhaustive. and it was indeed a pretty rocky yet fulfilling year. in a strange sort of way. and im really looking forward to this new year ahead :) esp the summer break, haha. well, people talk abt new year resolutions and i do have a few :) but that shall be kept to myself aight?

thank God for staying by my side the whole year :) and i know He will be there, in the many many many years to come :)

a lovely christmas.

2006-12-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

a pretty good shot of the year 3s that were there for reunion session :) whether to sing or to watch. reunion session was mmm, okay. i think i enjoyed the ritz lobby session more but it was nice seeing so many familiar faces again :) even nelson! haha.

reunion sessions are lovely :) 200 people congregated in raffles hotel lobby. every christmas. but the oomph wasnt really there this year. i think the best session was my year zero year haha. when i was still puny and had bad hair.

sang o justi with the year 3s. unofficial batch song :) was nice i guess :)

nelson has set a great tradition for vj choir and i foresee myself coming back to raffles hotel 3.30pm every christmas, whether to sing or to watch. though in years to come most likely the latter.

it was a lovely christmas this year and i really regret not taking ANY PHOTOS. haha completely slipped my mind. it was christmas lunch at karen's with the church youth :) then carolling. then a good 3 hours with my lovely felyna lee :) highlight of my day! just talking and being cynical HAHA. then its off to the usual gathering at aunty janice's. oh my the babies have GROWN. and now they have hair. so adorable and sweet :) small chit chat and catch up and now am home :) pity i cldnt make it for the etta christmas gathering, hope everyone's having fun, hahaha.

am a happy, contented girl :)

here we come a-carolling!

2006-12-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

back at ritz carlton carolling for the fourth christmas eve in a row. somehow i love singing at the ritz on christmas eve, to the happy diners :) have figured that ang mohs are probably the most appreciative sort of audience. and sometimes just one happy face in the audience just makes you wanna sing and sing and sing, knowing that you've made their christmas more blessed.

with gab conducting the sessions, ben and calvin doing the gaudate solos and lucas with his strange emcee lines (HAHA), it was like year one all over again! :) haha, i really do love singing all those old familiar carols. with people who love singing just as much as i do :)

tomorrow it'll be the reunion session at raffles hotel, 3.30pm. im quite looking forward to it :)

youth camp pics

2006-12-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

snapshots!

THE FART CLUB :)

now, as president, i am very pleased to announce that after one year of operation we have our own TEE SHIRTS and a grand total of five members :)

but apparently the boys love wearing it the other way round.

ending off with one of my fav piccas of the camp (: wish it were coloured though.. everyone's CRAMMED ON MY UPPER DECK BED. cosy cosy. glad it didnt fall through.

don't emo la.

2006-12-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

i wish we didnt have to come back cos i really enjoyed myself there :)

it wasnt a blast or anything great. but with great company and being so close to nature and away from the outside world? its like perfect. we went to the beach everyday, and night :) that's despite the SWARMS of crabs in the day (which were actually harmless and pretty cute), and the SWARMS of sandflies at night la.

i think the most beautiful moment of the camp was yesterday night :) under the stars by the beach with my closest friends, looking at the different constellations through alden's binoculars, talking about everything, about God. it's so different from singapore beaches. it was pitch black except for the stars (so many of them!) and our torches. the horizon was clear, no ships. the sand was clean and of course, invaded by hermit crabs and sandflies but that didnt bother me much la. the tide got higher till it reached our ground sheets and the drizzle came, possibly a sign that we shld go back in. and we did, but continued talking, perhaps it got a little too scary for me. still, it was lovely and i wish the night never ended.

these are the people i wanna grow old with and carry their children next time :) people i will be praying for every day :)

thank God for angels in our lives. and for allowing us to be so close to nature and so close to You.

2006-12-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

thought i'd put up the pics while i can, before i have no more wireless when i move, in approximately less than 12 hours.

can't seem to put up the photo of my room, but nevermind :)

enjoy the photos then :) and i'll see you all when i do.

it's time to sleep :)

a tribute.

2006-12-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

the beautiful dwelling.

where i pooped for the past 13 years of my life.

goodbye house, goodbye.

moving house is usually a joyous occasion for most, but unfortunately it isnt so this time. i think i will never forget this day, this week, this incident. still, we grit our teeth a little and do everything with a smile, knowing that God is always with us :)

oh, food for thought. when i mention that im shifting out, friends will ask when where why how what. but those who really care will ask when where why how what, and "do you need my help?"

so i thank God for these people. thank God, for sending angels :)

RAHH.

2006-12-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER PICTURE!! :) youth jump :)

aight, piccas!

2006-12-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

for we are the pathfinders strong! am an imposter :)

yay! happy picture. dom looks cool with my scarf, like it's WINTER haha

our PALACE, before striking it down :) heh.

ps: on behalf of mr red-head, everyone click on the 'brats' link on your right :D

the salty breeze

2006-12-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

aight. instead of waiting for shannon and dom to send me photos, i shall just blog ya?

so pathfinder camp was really nice :) much as i was disappointed cos it was not the outdoorsy/survival sort of camp, i guess pasir ris park isnt THAT bad. haha! alright la. it was more of a relaxing, enjoyable kinda thing and i really relaxed.

it was really surreal. caressa and i got the BIG tent (henceforth known as "the palace") all to ourselves cos aunty diana didnt stay over afterall! haha. and the first night, i had the best sleep i had the whoooole week. bah, exams!

imagine! when you close your eyes you hear the rustling leaves, waves crashing on the shore. you smell the salt in the air. you feel the pretty strong breeze (the palace was breeeezy :D), like aircon! and to top it all off, daniel was playing the guit in the background. so it was like.. a typical resort style thingamajig. lovely lovely.

the second night was nice too. roasting marshmallows with all the kiddos, haha. playing a rather failed attempt of truth or truth. then spent the night chatting with shannon whom i havent caught up with in a longish time! then dozed off at four am on the benches facing the sea, (freezing, no doubt) in my sleeping bag, only to be woken up by the rain two hours later. bummer! didnt catch the sunrise cos it was all cloudy.

it was a lovely camp :) despite our failed attempts at starting the fire. spending hours just trying to cook maggi mee. hahha it was fun and lovely. piccas up soon :)

after the camp i've decided that camping by the beach isnt that much of a loserish thing to do. haha i think it beats hanging ard in town, or some hawker centre. hah it's a much better way to destress, compared to loud music and crazy dancing :)

leave it all behind.

2006-12-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

it is a first day of december, a happy month, or so people believe.

in retrospect, its been a good thirteen and half years butit looks like we've got to leave it all behind. i knew the time was to come sooner or later, it just never really sunk in. it is silly to feel sad over something like this but i practically grew up here and everything that i can remember is, well, here.

when i think about the cause of it all, i can't help but feel indignance and disdain. but i remember that God teaches us to forgive and forget. and things always happen for a reason, they always happen for the best. and that's the only thought that keeps me going. that whatever nonsense happens, God intended something to be learnt and at the very very end, He knows what's best for me. all these seemingly huge setbacks will seem so trivial. so so trivial. and the outcome, will always be for the best.

i need to pack for pathfinder camp, but im too tired. maybe tomorrow morning.

it was a happy, sad day today. and it's a bummmpy, uncertain road ahead.

goooodnight.

:)