Saturday, April 22, 2006

hello again :)

so i've closed down my pitas over two months ago.

i want this to be a happier/viewer-friendly blog, and hopefully uplifting and encouraging to the people who read this. i know the viewership would definitely decline, cos most voyeurs/acquaintances only read blogs to 'update' themselves on the lives of people they dont even give two hoots about (ie. kaypohs). i do not deny that i belong to this category of the busybodies. but im trying to curb this unhealthy habit, ha.

then again, blogs are for narcissists. and we all are, to a certain degree. actually, blogs fuel narcissism. and most people who blog, want attention. even in very subtle ways. they want people to read their blogs. they type about their 'glorious' lives hoping that people would form a certain impression of them and think "wow, he/she is so cool" or blah. haha i dont say it's wrong. it's perfectly fine :)

the only thing that irks me are entries that attack people. those "you think you're so great huh, well you're NOT cos no one respects you" kinda entries that shoot people down indirectly. no one can sue the writers cos they are "not directly attacking anyone by name what". but it makes readers who think/know that it's them, feel uncomfortable, cause misunderstandings. i've been the target and it's not very nice. usually due to a misunderstanding of sort. and the emotional wounds are deep. it sets the grounds for others to talk and gossip, and it cuts your wounds even more deeply.

so, i just closed down pitas because i wanted to stop fuelling my narcissism. i loved myself too much. there's more to this world than myself and thinking about myself and my problems. i admit that sometimes when i blog(ged) i hoped for people to emphatise. i am not a secure person but im getting better, i hope :) i also closed it down cos i was sick of random people and acquaintances reading my blog with no good intention. i also hoped to stop emotionally 'abusing' anyone cos i know i've done that before and usually i type it when im feeling all "righteous" and don't think im hurting anyone.

this chic lady will be different :) i hope so at least. so if you're here to find out ifihaveaboyfriend or howididformyalevels, im sorry but you won't find any daily rantings here, you nosey poker ;)

whoops, i did say i'll stop the emotional abuse ;)

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