medicine vs accountancy.

two worlds apart? indeed they are.

yesterday, at the medicine essay/psychometric test at nus, i saw many many random pri/sec/jc schoolmates. everyone i recognised were from top 3 jcs. haha. elitish? yup. 700 people vying for 200 places? eeps. i don't know why but i just dont like seeing familiar faces in such settings. or perhaps i just too paranoid about what people think.

i generally do not like to tell people that i applied for med. those who have been acquainted with me for the past year will recoil/have recoiled in horror "WHAT? i never knew you wanted to take med!! it's so not you." and probably think i've applied just cos i made the grades. haha it's true though. i've never thought of taking med. didnt wanna be a doctor. but what made me change my mind was not the grades, yet i know people who don't understand will scoff at my real reason.

for the past how many years i've always rejected the idea of being a doctor cos i didnt wanna have to wear a white coat and sit around in my small clinic under some shophouses. nor did i relish the idea of having to cut up people's body parts. furthermore, i knew that nus med was for the brightest. and i was hardly in that league :D overseas medical education was also a dead option cos it's just so ex with practically no chances of a scholarship. so i happily striked med off my list. haha.

until recently, i had a Very Concerned Mother trying to tell me that accountancy was a boring field and i'll be bored to death, that i was better off in the health field cos it's more worthwhile and i could better serve the Lord. yup, you heard it. Jesus, during His ministry, healed the sick. that must be an important thing to do. if i have the capabilities and the grades, why not do it too? the adventist circle is short of doctors, or so i've been told by uncle john and pastor danson. having a medical degree allows me to better minister to people both physically and spiritually. but i still do not wanna be a gp at a clinic nor cut up people's body parts in a hospital. i'd want to move on to do mission work, after completing my education and serving my bond with moh. but it's a big step and i dont know if it's actually feasible cos by the time i complete my bond i'd be wanting to settle down with a family. but then again, maybe settling down's not God's plan for me :) ooh. haha. other than the prospects of doing missionary work and being able to actively contribute to the health ministry, i would probably strike med off my list again. but i dont know how much the admissions committee would buy my idea of doing mission work. -shrugs-

on the other hand, being an accountant, what do you do? besides working with numbers, auditing, blah. nothing to directly contribute to His ministry. with an accounting degree i know that i can go far, at least in the corporate world. it's a good income if i work hard. but that's just so selfish isnt it. then again, my family could do with the extra income. my mother has been working far too hard.

haha. it's a tough decision but i'll let God decide :) anyway the road to taking medicine in nus is still subject to many factors. i may nt make it past the faculty admissions and we might not be able to afford it. but if miraculously the road is cleared, i make it into the 200 and my tuition fees are settled, i'll go for it :)

sometimes, it's nice to know that God is in control. that whichever path He chooses for you, you know it's the best for you. so you dont have to worry if you're suddenly thrown into something foreign and unfamiliar cos something good will always come out of it :D something much better than the path you yourself might have chosen to take.

thus im giving all my worries to God, and not overly stressing myself over matters that only God is in control of.

God is good, all the time :D