early morning..

thought i'd blog to shift the angsty post down, :) haha. this mid term break is getting worserrrrr by the day! its crazy. im up at such an odd hour of the day because yesterday was a grumps-inducing day and i didnt want to do tax feeling frustrated and grumpy. i cant believe how i wasted the whole afternoon so unwillingly. but anyhows, im up bright and early and the morning air is nice and cool :)

i've forgotten how nice it was to sleep really early the night before and wake up early in the morning! its really quite peaceful and non-distracting haha. i need to do this more often. perhaps tomorrow.

still contemplating if i should go to school earlier for consultation with kta. i do have my fair share of doubts but he's so scary :( and i have an immense fear of being ridiculed. haha. and still thinking if i shld dance today with my semi-swollen toe. mmmmms. oh well.

my mommy's making pancakes :) i shall do 1 more paper then head to school i guess.

ciaos.

angsty

find myself becoming more and more angsty of late, unable to explain why.

i feel overworked, but so do a lot of people, so i try not to complain. i need to cut down, i have too much on my plate. i find all my sundays burnt, by proj meetings and the likes. so many commitments to attend to, so many assignments to complete, quizzes to study for. so many obligations, every one asking me to do this and to do that. so many people to make happy.

i feel stressed and tired (adjectives often used carelessly). but the only way is to grit my teeth and bear with it, until it is all over.

im alive.

i dont believe im doing this, despite all the work and to-dos on my never-ending list. people are not lying when they say every sem gets crazier and crazier. this is the last sem i am ever going to do more than 5 mods. (ok so its 5.5, and FT hasnt started. but i still feel v busy!) and this is the last sem i am ever going to do 3 accounting mods.

okay but it's outlook's fault that i cant check my email and am therefore doing unproductive things. so here are some pretty pictures. collage no 1 is cny with church friends - very fun! the family photos are still with kim so i dont have them yet! but they are really nice too :) my little coussies have grown!! collage no 2 is taiwan! :) awesome trip. do click to enlarge.

i really wanna put mission trip photos but there are just too many to sieve through. like over a thousand. i kid you not.

been a crazy semester so far, i dont even know where to begin. but anyhow, i will survive, i hope :) i need all the prayers to make it through to week 15 (oh dear, i just remembered - i have 5 exam papers).

i have been thinking very hard, about what i wanna do and where i want to go in life, esp after graduation. and i realised, that my priorities have shifted quite a lot a lot since the uniformed days. things have changed so much, my mindset and attitude. now as i turn 21 this year, it's really time to think and reflect (i love daydreaming and reflecting) with lotsa prayers. its adulthood man, that's scaaaary. there's something in me that wants to do the right thing, to make my mommy proud and of course, to make God proud.

i want to go on a birthday retreat! but that's still many months more.

alrightiees, time to sleeeeep. i'll be back.. soon. possibly hmmm, in the summer :) goodnight !

the Godly woman.

Singleness is not a waste of time or a sitting on the sidelines, but a time that God has set aside especially for the woman, to make her into what He wants her to be, and to use her in ways that just might be impossible after marriage. Singleness is a time in which a woman is to cultivate the virtues that pertain to being a woman of God, so that she can offer to her future husband and the world something more than just a pretty face.

By no means is it a tragedy to be a single Christian woman, but the way of the world has once again infiltrated Christianity with the false idea that it is. One of the greatest lies is that if you do not "have someone" or are not "actively looking", there is something wrong with you. Another lie is that thesingle woman should be dating around as though looking for a husband were the same as shopping in a mall. Still another even stronger lie is that the single woman should be giving her affections away indiscriminately so that she may be more "experienced" and know what to do when she finally finds the man of her choice. My dear Christian, it is a lie and an affront to God to say that experience is the best teacher, when in fact it is God who is the best teacher, and though the world's motto is "live and learn," the Bible's advice is "learn and live." You do not need to be experienced, you only needto be knowledgeable of what God has said and obedient to it. You should not be looking for the man of your choice, but should be waiting on the man of God’s choice. And when he comes, it will not be past experiences that will make your marriage work, but past chastity, purity, and godliness. We should hide our faces from the ways and experiences of this wicked world and look upon only those things that God has placed in the path He has prepared for us.

a reassurance for single Christian ladies :)